I ran a little over 7 and half miles today and I’m in so much pain it’s not even funny. Matt’s convinced it was closer to 8 miles even though I’m using MapMyRun, but I wouldn’t doubt that since my body feels like I ran a million miles today. I could barely step up on the curb when I finished. The walk up the stairs in my house had me holding onto the railing for dear life. I was in so much pain Matt had to help me stretch because I couldn’t move my limbs on my own.
I really don’t know how I’m going to make the 13.1 miles. I know each week I run further and I do it, but lately I’m starting to really freak out over this whole thing. I was in Eddie’s spin class Tuesday night and I was dying. I was at one point on the verge of tears because I thought, I have to run for two and a half hours and I was struggling with a one hour spin class. Now granted, the day before we introduced Body Pump 78 which is a much harder release than the past few, and then I ran 4.5 miles on Tuesday morning, did a half of Zumba class before going straight into Spin. So it wasn’t just the one hour of spin that got me, but I was exhausted and fried 20 minutes into that class and it hit me that I might not have what it takes to finish the half marathon and that scares me.
I guess the only thing I can say is I did wake up this morning without any aheming and ahawing. I just got dressed and left the house. Matt didn’t have to prompt me at all, so it’s starting to become part of my routine and I know it’s something I have to do. And as I have mentioned before, the GU gels, Quench Gum, and water bottle (which I mixed with some Gatorade) all helped. And there is no way in hell without Matt’s encouragement and all of the mentioned accoutrements that I would even have made it this far.
I have 10 weeks left from this moment to make up the other 5 and a half miles and I’m really going to have to do my best to get out of my head. I need to switch, “Oh God, F**K!!!! What the F**ck was I thinking? I can’t do this. F**K!” with “Go Money, You’ve got this, Come on Money!” because if I don’t I’ve just doomed the race right there.